YOUR MAMA IS DRUNK!

I just read in the paper yesterday that the manufactors of the drug Ambien are having to change it's strength from 10mg to 6.5mg on orders from the FDA. (That probably didn't make sense, it's not like I'm writing with the help of an editor)  It seems there have been too many automobile accidents due to the grogginess the medicine causes the next morning, the sleep driving, and the sleep eating you do on this drug..... just to name a few.  I know all about this drug because I've been on this medication for 20 years.  Am I addicted?.... Am I using it as a Crutch?.....Is it Habit Forming?.... Yup, Yup, &Yup.... When you are Bi Polar you do what you gotta do.  About 14 years ago my daughters where 8, 6, & 4.  My husband was out of town playing golf.  I use to get so pissed off when he went with the boys for the weeken, and I was stuck home taking caring of the girls.  Now that my girls are grown, I'm so enjoying my independence again.  Those fights we use to have about golf are long gone.  Now that I don't give a sh@# if my huband plays golf, there's no money for him to play, unless a vendor brings him then he wins and brings home the same stuff..... a shirt, some balls, a bag, some tees and a gilf certificate to guess where? ..... A Golf Store.  Ain't that somethin'.  Getting back to the Ambien story.   My daughters decided to have a sleep-over.  So that would be 4 girls all under 8 years old.  I wanted to get a good night sleep so I took 2/10mg Ambiens added to the Trivil & Prozac I was on.  I woke up the next morning with Cold & Cough Medicines, Nyquil, Asprins, Pepto Bismol, Band-Aids and fingernail polish strewn everywhere, on my bed and on my nightstand.  I got the story the next morning from my 8 year old.  She said her friend said, "YOUR MAMA IS DRUNK we need to help her." The poor little girls' parents were recovering alcoholics so that's what she thought.  It seems when I was in my Ambien induced Coma the girls had polished my nails, my hands, my eyelids all while I slept. I don't know what they did with all those medicines.  Evidently I didn't ingest all that, expecially Nyquil because I'm still here.  Like Nyquil or any cold medicine would do anything anyway because if you see what I take now to go to sleep?...It's like 2 Horse and 3 other pills all at the same time and I still sometimes can't sleep.  What a great mother I was.  I was over protective in some ways like my girls riding in a car other than me driving would cause me lots of anxiety and yet I never thought to lock up medicines.  Then my daughter told me that I got up out of the bed and had all the girls sit in a circle to drink lemonade out of a bottle.  My oldest daughter said it wasn't lemonade, it was wine coolers.  She said she knew it was bad so she dumped the wine coolers in the sink.  I'm such an over pretective mother, I find this story so bizarre and hard to believe, but it really happened.  I will admit to driving to Wal Mart in my nightgown, buying Hershey Kisses, eating them and returning to bed.  I did that ONE time.  I will also admit to calling random people and have entire conversations, but not remembering any of it the next day.  Now that I've been on Ambien for 20 years I know better.  No more crazy stuff.  I now simply watch Netflx until I fall asleeep then watch it again the next day because it's like I didn't watch it at all.  The end~